Thursday, August 1, 2013

Big news

I'm two months pregnant today. Most of our family and close friends know our special news. I still feel like it's a secret until I get through my last month of the first trimester. I want to have somewhere I can share my feelings throughout this process, as it's so dear to my heart and soul. My blog was a place where I just started  throwing things together but maybe now it will have more meaning.

I want to always remember the moment Steve and I discovered we were expecting. We were up north in Traverse City over the 4th of July and one of my best friends' wedding. A bunch of friends were up celebrating with us on the boat but I (oddly) wasn't in the mood for drinking. At the wedding I was bothered by a certain smell all night, but no one else could detect it. I told Steve I was going to take a pregnancy test when we got home that Saturday night. We drove all day and didn't get home until 10 PM. I was determined to take the test. We had been trying to have a baby for about 6mos. I took a digital pregnancy test and the result came back within 30 seconds. I hadn't even turned the light on in the bathroom. Steve stood outside the bathroom door, I was right inside the bathroom. We stood next to each other as I looked at the result "pregnant". My response was "No way!!! It says pregnant BABY!!!!!!!!" We were SO EXCITED. It was one of the best moments of my life. 

The first trimester has been smooth so far. By now, I have experienced the majority of the typical symptoms. Fatigue, nausea, food aversions, sore boobs, indigestion, etc. I lay awake at night thinking about who our baby will be, what she will look like, if she is a she or  a he, their name, what kind of mom I'll be, and what kind of dad Steve will be. I think about how our family will be and it melts my heart. Then I drift off and dream about it all.